So, it's been about four months since I last posted, and I felt the urge to get back into writing. A lot of things have occurred and I would like to share a few thoughts, while pointing out the direction I am going to take this blog.
First, I would like to address my last post, give updates, and some further insight as to why I stopped contributing. I felt that my point and purpose were being overshadowed by my fear of being judged. While I stated I didn't worry about such things, obviously I was, and it was taking some of my honesty out of what I was writing. When I concluded my last post, I was in a conundrum as to what I was going to do: either quit writing, or come back with a different approach and attitude. I'm back with that new approach, and while I understand it may be controversial to some, it's my honest thoughts and feelings. I'm going to voice my opinion, mostly because I feel compelled to, and also in hopes of creating a place to talk about such things. Last time, I got hung up on worrying about readership, comments, and shares. This time, I am just going to write what I feel and just let the other things fall where they may. I am no longer concerned about what my friends, family, and colleagues think about my heart and soul. I've had family distance themselves from me since I've started this blog. I've seen other bloggers who gave up on their blog, or just chose not to publish anymore. I'm just going to do what I want on this blog from now on, and if you don't like it, you can chose to just ignore my updates.
Secondly, I would like to share a personal confession of sorts. I didn't realize how much this blog connected me with God. I knew that it certainly helped me, but I didn't know that it was REALLY helping me. I have seen an uptick in my swearing, exponentially, since I quit writing this blog. I've reduced praying to a once or twice scripted affair that is superficial at best. My anger and rage issues have resurfaced. I've completely given up on trying to be different at work, giving in to swearing, gossiping, and generally despicable behavior. I've went completely belligerent while playing Call of Duty, with my son's precious little ears hearing my disgusting mouth. I'm tired of it. I want to at least try to do better, and I haven't been. When I was writing on this blog, It connected me and kept me in a great mental place with God. I prayed more, I though about my actions, and I really tried to be a better person and show love to everyone. I am hoping that I can pick back up where I left off, and try to improve as much as I can.
Finally, I wanted to let you guys know that I'm going to be changing a few things on this blog. I'm going to start with posting about other stuff than just religion. I want to write about stuff that interests me and maybe start some conversations up that aren't so serious. I'm going to categorize each post so that you guys know what it's about before even clicking on it, so that you can choose to ignore if you would like. For instance, GEEK may have posts about video games, fandoms such as Doctor Who and Sherlock, books, and movies. LIFE may have post about cooking, home improvement stuff, and my family. Obviously, religious stuff would be under the heading of RELIGIOUS, and would include my thoughts, opinions and inner most fears about God, Christianity, and all of us.
I hope that you guys will keep viewing, and maybe get something out of this blog, even if it's just a laugh or a good read. God Bless,
Josh
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